A New Song

As much as I love writing, I don’t write as much as I should.  I get caught up in the non-essential tasks of life.  I cloud my mind with useless television programming because for those few hours I get to visit someone else’s reality, someone else’s fiction, someone else’s mess.  My mess has become so repetitive that sometimes I just want to wave the white flag and just ask for a new problem.  But, I wake up this morning singing a new song.  That perhaps, the repetition of such mess is due to my inability to break free from it.  Perhaps it is necessary to repeat itself because I haven’t learned from it.   

When I can hear God’s voice speak to me, I feel confident in knowing that I am walking the right path.  But, when the voice goes mute, I struggle with my believe.  I struggle with my faith.   I wonder if what I am doing is the right thing.  I heard him direct me a long time to write.  Yet, I ignored the direction and it has caused me to stay repetitive.   I want to sing a new song. 

 

When I hear God’s voice speak to me,  I feel so loved and blessed that he finds delight in me.   But, when the voice goes mute, I struggle with abandonment issues.  I struggle with my faith.  I wonder if what I am saying is the right thing.  If He really has sufficient Grace.   I want to sing a new song.

 

When I hear God’s voice speak to me,  I feel like I can do anything.  But, when the voice goes mute, I struggle with confidence.  I struggle with faith.  I wonder if I’m capable.  I wonder if qualified for the call.  I want to sing a new song.  

 

When I hear God’s voice speak to me,  I feel humbled.  I feel important.  I submit freely with a servant’s heart  knowing that this is the only voice that matters.  I can rest in His confidence that I don’t have to be anything else but me,  that all the gifts he’s given me is enough.  I just have to use them completely.   He will do the rest.  

 

I want to sing a new song.  I want to write something new.  I want to get out of the repetition of my mess, and just look forward to answering him and giving him my  best. 

 

I say YES!